l. e. n. n. y ’s m. i. n. d.

oh i can’t imagine wearing something that close to my eyes.. sitting above my nose and just hang in there where ever I go. like a stalker. oh do I need glasses? what is happening with my eyes? this is never happening to me before

it can NOT! huhuhu…

okay, Monday, I’ll check them, my precious eyes..

it’s not about wearing the glasses, I am familiar with people with soft contact lens.

it’s just………. I’m losing my healthy eyes.

and it really makes me sad. eventually.

I don’t like this.

I still don’t have a plan for this new year’s eve, fourteen hours before the following year started. Funny that mostly I always want to do something special at that time, seconds changing to the new year’s time.. being somewhere, drink or eat something special. But this morning I woke up and just think that, okay, this is my last day in 2007, and then I sit, praying. I realized I haven’t did much for the people I Iove… there were so many mistakes, and even regrets, I admit. God must be disappointed because of me, and the way I’m living my life, with all those sins, all those bad feelings and thoughts. Ever heard about the list of seven deadly sins? It’s a classification of vices that were originally used in early Christian teachings to educate and instruct followers concerning (immoral) fallen man’s tendency to sin. Those seven are: lust (excessive love of others which therefore rendered love and devotion to God as secondary), gluttony (the over-indulgence and over consumption of anything to the point of waste), greed (applied to the acquisition of wealth in particular), sloth (represents the failure to utilize one’s talents and gifts, note that laziness is included!), wrath (described as inordinate and uncontrolled feelings of hatred and anger), envy (love of one’s own good perverted to a desire to deprive other men of theirs, bad!!!!), and the last one: PRIDE (which is indeed the ultimate source from which the others arise; it’s identified as an excessive love of self, especially holding self out of proper position toward God).

Eventhough this list can be considered as a thing from an  ‘old’ Christian region, I think the basic is good. And, if I live in that period, I must be dead by now, cause I did all of the seven deadly sins where the punishment for each sin itself is so severe.. but yeah, I live in this 20th century, so no one will ask me to sew my eyes because of my enviness, or else. I just need to apologize (and mean it!) and hope for forgiveness, from other people, and, of course, from the God Almighty.

So, everyone, please forgive me for all of my mistakes, pray for the best in the following years, be a better Lenny, with a better way to live the life, to the fullest. Bless ya!

Happy new year !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

PS. I think I’ll just go to the centrum and see the crowd, and the fireworks

yeps, I’m back again in Belgium now,
after been experiencing such a great wintertime in Switzerland
(cold but bright and sunny, PLUS lots of cuttiehottieguys!)
now I have to struggle again with this bad Belgian weather
(wet wet and so wet) that makes me don’t  even want to open my window and I could tell that Switzerland is oh so much breathtakingggg….
I visited Zurich on the first day, and went up to the top of Mount Titlis in Engelberg on the second day (and visited Luzern later that night after a whole day full of mountain of snow), visited Bern and Laussane on the third day, and finally visited Genéva on the last day…
it was great. had so much fun.. I really wanna go back there sometimes.
later. for sure. hopefully.
can’t get enough of Switzerland…

**pictures can be seen on the photo albums section.

Feels like to strech my body for a while before sleep,

I decided to do some 15 minutes pilates.

(just downloaded some videos of pilates-at-home kinda thing)
and yes, for the first 4 minutes, it feels fun to strech and strech..

just wait… move further, go on girl,,, keep your balance..

ooowwww… movements were getting more and more difficult,

and tiring. REAL tiring..
and finally for the last 2 minutes,
all I can di is just stared at the instructur on the video,

and desperately said to the poor me,

how the heck she can move like that??!?!!!

sigggghhhh… i believe now that pilates can burn fat!

it’s just sooooo much tiring !!!!!!!!!!

but it’s definitely great for your body posture, and muscle!

hope I’ll stick to this exercise :)  ***amen!!

ah ya, I also did some short bedtime yoga,

just for the cooling down and the breath control.

okay I’ll stop here and get some sleep… ciao!

PS. okay, I’m not really sure I’ll do this every nite *** try to be honest!
      uuum, how ’bout twice a week? so so laaaah.. hahahaha

                                          

Tired of doing my assignments (got so bored!)
I gave up for a while and made some
hotchoco for myself (such a great drink for this cold cold night.. huhu). I
was thinking to make some soup, but then I changed my mind (actually
cos’ I don’t have any ready-to-eat soup packages anymore…) While I
was preparing for my hotchoco, I suddenly remembered about the meeting
this afternoon with my group of the optional course class. My group
consists of 3 guys and 3 girls, including me (too bad all of the guys
are not available anyway, hihihi). The thing is, I remember that
Valéri, one of the guys, told me that I look like …. a SMURF !!! Damn! hahahahaha……

please, can anybody tell me why is that???
Hellooooo, a smurf ??!?
(yea yea I know,
I’m too short to be a 24-almost-25-years-old girl, sigh!)    

The only difference is that I don’t live in a mushroom house!!  haha..

u know what is d’thing i hate most rite now?
when i don’t have time to read my novels!
and why is that?
it’s cos’ i haven’t finish my lab report,
and, haven’t finish any of my projects.
and why is that?
no doubts, my unfocusness.
nothing’s finished even i spent d’whole day!
so, the thing is,
i hate my unfocusness,
huhuhuhuhuhu……
i want to read my noveeeeels
i haven’t even read one of these books!!!
sigh sigh sighhhh,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

ohhh i’m dying to have some guilty pleasure,
runaway from everything and just sit and read…
damn, life doesn’t have to be this hard!!!  :((

weekend ini dapet buku stephen king dua biji,
hasil perburuan 4jam lebih di boekenfestijn.. senangnyaaa
tadinya ada 3 buku yang mau dibeli,
entah mengapa oh mengapa, pas ngantri di kasir,
kok buku yang satu gak adaaaaaa??!?!!
ah ah sial, mo balik lagi nanti kudu ngantri lagi,
blum kalo lieur lagi cari rak-nya, huuh bete..
jadi cuma dapet 2 stephen king deh,
plus 5 novel lucu.. hehehe.
tadinya mau beli buku2 travelers, tapi saking binguuuuung mo pilih yang mana,
dan secara itu lorong udah gw tongkrongin satu jam-an lebih
dan gw tetep bingung mau beli yang mana,
akhirnya gw jangar sendiri dan ga beli satu pun. hahaha
**sedikit menyesal,, tapi sudahlah,,**
asiiiik, stephen king baruuuuu :))
sampul buku-buku baru dulu ahhhh, yuuukss…

just watched ‘50first dates’, again.
(relax, it was only for the second time.)
strucked me that i kinda felt like i never watch it before,
laughed just like when i saw it for the first time,
cried just like when i saw it for the first time.
just like Lucy’s first kiss(es)
oh memory.. i’m glad you’re staying with me.
i might want to lose you so badly,sometimes,
but i guess i didn’t really mean it. most of the time.
so just stay with me okay,,
my memories,
stay with me.

Hiiii. i just wanna make some update for this journal.
today i felt that the holiday spirit has officially arise! 
X’mas markt every here and there,
X’mas decorations at the stores, along the streets,
X’mas cuttie plants smiling on my desk!)
X’mas songs start to give their beats (at least in my iTunes!)

wheeeewww, i start counting down friends!!
ah i still remember how last year i felt so blue about X’mas,
i had never passed X’mas without my big family,,,,,
but this time, i really feel so excited!

well, winter holiday is the most wonderful time of the year eh?
feels soooo good!! can’t wait.. can’t wait.. can’t wait..
can’t wait for the sound of the snow crunching on the foot,
can’t wait for the dances through the snow.. snow snow snow..
can’t wait for the smell of all those pine trees,
can’t wait for the rings of those big big bells.. everything!
it’s just, undescribable.. it’s just, you know, even if you’re blind, 
you always know that it’s the holiday season!!!!
walking in the winter wonderland, that’s what i am craving for,
wonderful X’mas time! 

ps. though it’ll be different if i could just jump there and pack up my family
      here.. boohoohoooo,,, gonna miss them much,, hope they’ll have a
      great time as well. SO, happy (coming) holiday everyone!
      get your spirit ON! wooohhhoooooooooooooo